Mothers' Day

Before I was a Mom -I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Mother's Day has taken on a new meaning for me the last couple years. I started celebrating Mother's Day on the Saturday before Mother's Day Sunday. WOW!! What a difference that has made. I take the whole day to myself and do whatever and go wherever I want. My wonderful husband and children are much obliged and I truly appreciate it. This year I got to have 3 days! I went to California to be with my mom and my sisters. No children - it was blissful. I got to spend some good quality time with my mom and sisters. The drive their was great, my music, my food, my schedule. However, the drive home was quite different. I found myself being very anxious to get home to my family. I found myself thinking about all those road trips with children and how at times they were down right miserable, but I got the kids to myself for 8 - 9 hours. We have the opportunity to talk and play games and pass the time together. My thoughts were filled with my kids the entire trip home and how I am so lucky to be a mom and have this incredible life to experience and how really my life would not have a whole lot of meaning without them. I often wonder what I would do if I didn't have kids. Yes, I could sit and list all the things I could do for myself- but I assume that would get pretty boring after awhile. I feel so blessed to be able to have these children, although some of my posts say otherwise, and so very thankful that I am a mom.

I drove home a little faster than I drove away. When I did arrive home, I was greeted with loud shouts of Happy Mother's day, hand made gifts and cards and lots of decorations.

Jake,Kyle, Kate, Cole and Kennedy thanks for another FAB Mother's Day.

I love you more than you know!