IT' S OVER??????

From Collages

What......it's over? Already? How can that be?

Weeks of preparation, endless shopping trips,

returning, exchanging, buying it again, wrapping.

And it is all over with.....

Christmas has come and gone.

Although our kids made out like pirates with their loot

it always seems so sad when it is all over.

All the hype is over in such a short time.

I love putting up my decorations.

It makes it feel so festive and so fun around the house.

For some reason any other season I decorate for

doesn't quite have the same feeling.

I dread taking it down.

It is so much work and it makes my house

feel so empty and so boring.

I wonder if I kept them up all year if that feeling would continue?

Naaaa, probably not!!!

So another year done and gone.

Where did it go?

Today was not a day I was necessarily looking forward to.

I hate birthdays - well my birthdays.

I do not like the idea of getting old.

Yet it keeps happening, faster and faster.

My husband is out of town

My kids didn't even remember when they woke up

nor did they say Happy Birthday when I did tell them.

I had a full day scheduled, hopefully to keep my mind off "the day".

Volunteering in Kate's class room

Deliver a few treats.

Clean the downstairs so that I can walk without sticking to my floor.

Finish teacher gifts and friend gifts.

THEN..... my phone started going crazy!

Texts, voice mails, emails, phone calls,

all for me! All my dear friends and family were thinking of me.

Not how old I was but just thinking of me on this day.

My dear girlfriends rearranged their schedules to eat lunch with me.

And oh was it good. mmmmmm!

I came home to numerous bags on my porch,

numerous messages on my machine.

Again all for me! More friends and family thinking of me.

My birthday night plans were mocked a bit by many,

but I was trying to make the best of it.

My kids wanted to take me to Carl's Jr. for my birthday.

I had several offers to watch my children so I could go out.

But I thought a lot about this,

who am I am going to go out with?

Who is going to be able to be pulled away from their family?

Of course I want to go to Carl's Jr with my kids.

They were so excited and

I was excited to be with them, ALL of them.

Life is so crazy and so busy,

I don't have them all to myself very often.

This dreaded day made me realize a lot of things.

I have A LOT of people that truly care about me and love me.

I will take Carl's Jr. with my kids on every birthday.

No one really cares how old I am anyway.

They say age is only skin deep and

my girlfriend was telling be about this anti aging product. (he he!)

So bring it.

Bring on the wrinkles,

bring on the grey hair,

bring on the not so toned body.

THANK YOU to everyone who delivered birthday wishes, in all forms.

I felt very loved, very humbled and very blessed today.

So it has been awhile since I have blogged .....uh ya think? The busy season is upon us and I can feel the anxiety creeping up my chest into my throat trying to choke me with stress. I try every year not to get myself in the same position I find myself in AGAIN this year. Too many cards to make, to many neighbor gifts to put together, the teacher gifts, the kids' friends gifts, gifts for my parents, gifts for Jake's parents.......... it never ends. I really really really was going to try to enjoy this time with my kids and try to have everything done. Yet here I am up until midnight every night making crap that no one really cares about anyway and "creating my own crisis" as my husband tells me. So it is December 10th and I have exactly 8 days to be finished with EVERYTHING because I AM going to enjoy Christmas break. I feel my children's childhood slipping through my hands and I just want to sit down and cry and make it all stop. So I guess I better stop blogging and get going....8 days and counting!